Patience....

Here is a quote a friend of mine had on her Facebook status tonight:

"Patience is not the ability to wait, but the ability to keep a good attitude while waiting."

These words hit me right in the heart. Dudley and I are in a state of having to be patient in several areas of our lives....

• having to be patient until Dudley can land a full time job
• having to be patient as we wait to hear back about a house
• having to be patient on this weight loss journey I am on
• having to be patient to know 100% sure I still have a full-time job next year

We have placed all of these things in God's hands but often the human side of us gets in the way and we begin to doubt His timing and His path for us to follow. We just keep reminding ourselves to be patient and let him lead.

Update...

This weekend was our Annual Women's Retreat at church. It was so nice to take a couple days and be spiritually feed. Getting to spend time in fellowship and community is something that I often take for granted because it is something that we all, for the most part have, but something that we don't use like we should. The worship and speaking was uh-mazing! I love when it is as if God has those speaking or leading talking to me and me alone. I know there were others that needed to hear what was said too but I love when He hits me right in the heart with His message.

With all of this being said, with fellowship usually comes eating....not so good when you are on a diet. I tried to be good, but I am not perfect and I messed up some. I was a little frustrated when I weighed myself this morning, but I just had to remind myself that everyday is a new journey and I will make!

One day down....

One day down and I have lost....(insert drum roll here) 3 lbs. Woot! I just ate better, six small meals/snacks, and did Zumba for about an hour!

Today got a little tougher when it came to eating because we had small group and they have a meal before we start the discussion. Dudley and I had dinner before we went but we used one of our snacks at group. It was so hard to just eat a little bit. I am hoping I didn't go over my calorie intake too much.

Here's to go results tomorrow!

Here we go....

Today is a day of beginning new things.

I have for quite some time struggled with my self-image. It is not something I have talked about with people, and it has been more of an issue than I am sure anyone realizes. That is how I often am with things. I keep them to myself because somewhere out there, there are bigger issues so why waste time on the small things like how I look.

It is often hard when shopping with others because, as I like to joke about, I always get the "big girl" clothes. It is hard when shopping to hear others always say things like, "Oh, wouldn't this look cute on so and so" but hardly ever hear, "Oh, this would look cute on you." My size usually doesn't look so cute on the hanger. This is why my style has never really been totally where I wish it was. I have always been the girl who wears t-shirts and tennis shoes. Even though I love both of those things, I have always wanted to branch out with my style.

This leads us to today. I have decided to really stick with and put in my full commitment to eating better and working out. The best part of all of this is that not only will I feel better inside and out, but I have the best accountability partner, my hubby! He has been so awesome in all of this and is stepping up to the plate to help me out anyway he can! I love him so much and glad we get to do life together!

I am going to try my best to update everyday how I am doing on this journey, but bare with me as I may not always want to post what is going on.