Frustration...

Here we are a month later and I am not very happy with myself or the lack of progress I have made. It seems like I just can't figure this weight loss thing out. We have switched our diet considerably but seems like my results are going nowhere! I make a small loss, only to put it back on the next day. I can't seem to get that jump start on losing weight.

Yes, I know that you usually plateau when you lose weight, but doesn't that come after you have had a significant loss?? Things are really getting frustrating and I think mentally I am worse off than when I started this whole process.

Patience....

Here is a quote a friend of mine had on her Facebook status tonight:

"Patience is not the ability to wait, but the ability to keep a good attitude while waiting."

These words hit me right in the heart. Dudley and I are in a state of having to be patient in several areas of our lives....

• having to be patient until Dudley can land a full time job
• having to be patient as we wait to hear back about a house
• having to be patient on this weight loss journey I am on
• having to be patient to know 100% sure I still have a full-time job next year

We have placed all of these things in God's hands but often the human side of us gets in the way and we begin to doubt His timing and His path for us to follow. We just keep reminding ourselves to be patient and let him lead.

Update...

This weekend was our Annual Women's Retreat at church. It was so nice to take a couple days and be spiritually feed. Getting to spend time in fellowship and community is something that I often take for granted because it is something that we all, for the most part have, but something that we don't use like we should. The worship and speaking was uh-mazing! I love when it is as if God has those speaking or leading talking to me and me alone. I know there were others that needed to hear what was said too but I love when He hits me right in the heart with His message.

With all of this being said, with fellowship usually comes eating....not so good when you are on a diet. I tried to be good, but I am not perfect and I messed up some. I was a little frustrated when I weighed myself this morning, but I just had to remind myself that everyday is a new journey and I will make!

One day down....

One day down and I have lost....(insert drum roll here) 3 lbs. Woot! I just ate better, six small meals/snacks, and did Zumba for about an hour!

Today got a little tougher when it came to eating because we had small group and they have a meal before we start the discussion. Dudley and I had dinner before we went but we used one of our snacks at group. It was so hard to just eat a little bit. I am hoping I didn't go over my calorie intake too much.

Here's to go results tomorrow!

Here we go....

Today is a day of beginning new things.

I have for quite some time struggled with my self-image. It is not something I have talked about with people, and it has been more of an issue than I am sure anyone realizes. That is how I often am with things. I keep them to myself because somewhere out there, there are bigger issues so why waste time on the small things like how I look.

It is often hard when shopping with others because, as I like to joke about, I always get the "big girl" clothes. It is hard when shopping to hear others always say things like, "Oh, wouldn't this look cute on so and so" but hardly ever hear, "Oh, this would look cute on you." My size usually doesn't look so cute on the hanger. This is why my style has never really been totally where I wish it was. I have always been the girl who wears t-shirts and tennis shoes. Even though I love both of those things, I have always wanted to branch out with my style.

This leads us to today. I have decided to really stick with and put in my full commitment to eating better and working out. The best part of all of this is that not only will I feel better inside and out, but I have the best accountability partner, my hubby! He has been so awesome in all of this and is stepping up to the plate to help me out anyway he can! I love him so much and glad we get to do life together!

I am going to try my best to update everyday how I am doing on this journey, but bare with me as I may not always want to post what is going on.

Changes....

Changes, changes everywhere!

There are changes in the season right now.

There are changes at school.

There are changes going on for Dudley and I right now.

There are changes going on in my family.

Most of the changes are things for the better, but with the good there usually comes some bad, and I must say there is some bad changes here right now.

I honestly believe the only thing getting me through all these changes, good or bad, is my faith in God and knowing there is nothing He would throw my way that He doesn't think I can handle. I know that in Him all things are possible! He is in every change there is and will ever be and because of that I have joy in all things going on in life!

Happenings...

I started off doing a pretty good job of blogging more often and then we got back into the swing of school and I slacked off. Oops!

Since my last post, I got scared pretty good one more when I went out to my car to go to work and there was evidence someone had been in my car. Now, I had taken anything of value out because a when it first got really cold I could not get my car to unlock at work and my dad had to save me. So, we decided that until it got warm again I would have to leave it unlocked : / Well, back to when I went out to my car, I walked out, opened my door and everything from my doors, glove box, and consol were in my front seat, and a few other things were misplace. Luckily nothing was missing and my car was okay, but it really shook me up! It got Dudley and I thinking about some next steps in our lives.

Since my last post, Dudley and I got free tickets to see Jimmy Fallon while he was here in Indy for the Super Bowl. Well, we got there to wait in line for our tickets knowing there was a chance of not making it because they told us they over booked. Little did we know, they REALLY over booked. We didn't make it in, but we did get a free T-shirt out of it. LOL. We had fun looking at all of the Super Bowl excitement and we were glad to get to experience it all!

Since my last post my sister and nephews have come to visit! I LOVE when I get to see their family. It warms my heart every time I hear Teagan say "Aunt Lala, you want to play with me?" and every time I see Eli's smiling little face. I can't wait to see what God has in store for those two because I knew they are going to do amazing things!

Finally, since my last post we are now getting ready to head to Atlanta on Thursday evening to see Dudley's parents and his friends. We are both excited to get to go down there and spend some time with everyone!

Hopefully, it won't be too much longer before my next post. Happy Valentine's Day everyone!